Like I said before, i've been unconsciously liking that same living being eventhough the situation is the same. But I don't feel something right. There is something between her guy and herself. But no matter, I have no interest in their relationship.
As we all can see, I don't care about her and yet she's still the first I think about. What can I do? If you ask me, I literally feel like..... No, nevermind.
I feel empty most of the time now, without her. Go to class in the morning, do nothing until teacher enters the class. Break time, I usually stay in a room, where usually join people's conversation. Go out lunch with some people, but sometimes alone. When have problem in class, no one to ask except the teacher. Go home without saying goodbye to anyone close anymore. Some days may be different, but that main typical day will play again.
But I'm pretty used to this. So it doesn't matter if she's with me or not. I've removed all the negatives easily and leave only joys around. No one will believe, but it's not my style to teach people happiness in the first place.
The Rondo Without You