And it felt like a rock,
As if Medusa have taken a glance at me,
But I'm strong.
'No curse shall slow me down',
My numbed hands turns lighter,
But not too light until I could fly,
I had my hands back in control,
With more power I paddled to the other side of the bay.
The tide that day was quite high. And the area I stopped my kayak was full of rock. There I swam carefully to the lone tree which have been standing at the corner of the bay, facing the horizon of the sea as if it was waiting for someone. It was a very gorgeous tree. Behind the tree there were some mangrove trees.
The area was very quiet.. It's felt so peace there. I could stay there for days.. just for the silence. I like it here... It seems like I do need some time of silence... but not as much as I need it before.
I looked back at the place where I stopped my kayak. It seems like my whole group finally reaches this area, after I had experience my epiphany. Some people swam to my direction where the mighty tree stands, and start taking pictures. Well that's because someone have a waterproof phone.
After some time, there's this girl swam on her own to where I stand. Why isn't she with anyone? She seemed to be alone... I mean no friends. Of course I know this girl. She's from my class.
But why did she go around the area alone?
Time's up, we gotta move to the other beach. Me and my partner kayak to the next beach. But since the world isn't giving us what we want sometime, the next destination was flooded. So we had to move to the other one.
We reached there and start asking our Geography teacher about rocks. Well, let's call her Ms Explain. So Ms Explain explained to us about the rocks around, why do they have holes? That we can find the answer in google. After we finish with the questions and answers,as random sayings, I ran towards the sea and jump into the people who were still kayaking and capsize them.
After all the mongrels finally reached the area, some of them start to throw each other sand. And there was a 'Crocodile Fight', where only this 2 big guys start to wrestle each other. It was fun and everyone was laughing. But not for one person.
I looked behind me for a moment. As a girl walking around in the room of darkness alone, this same girl I mentioned before walk to the other side by herself. She seemed to be searching for something. Well I don't want to ruin her time being one, but I walked to where she was.
Didn't recalled what I asked her there, but in the end she joined with the others. Well actually I find her cute, going around by herself with her small eyes. And from there I had been placing my eyes on her. Was she always alone?
Back on the resort. As I reached the beach, it does seemed like Medusa's curse start to take place.
Dinner time. I sat at table where my group sat. That girl's in different group, so she sat somewhere else. The canteen's pretty small. So it's not hard to search for her.
I'm no stalker, so I didn't search for her except during breakfast, lunch and dinner.
She seemed to be quiet sometime when her group was chatting about things. So I did see her went out of the group's chat and sat on a sofa alone. Pretty lonely for such a girl.
The next day, every group were to walk deep into the jungle and visit a waterfall. The waterfall was around 2000-3000 meter from the starting point, which was the canteen. Everyone's pretty tired when all of them reached the waterfall. I don't feel anything, though my back has experienced tsunami. All of us sat down by the waterfall, just to relax.
This girl sat quietly by the waterfall. So I went up to her and offered her some raisins. She seem to enjoy the raisin and start talking with me. I didn't ask her why is she always quiet and alone some time. I fear it may not be a pleasant question for her.
At the end of the camp. She asked my phone number. And so I gave her.
That night when I reach home. I received a message from her asking if this is my number. Well this was because I saved my number at her phone with different name. And I learnt something about her.
Her way of messaging me is... different from how others messaged me. I find this pretty cute of her. What she asked me hasn't yet been ask by any others.She seems to be different from others...Different from any girls in my previous year. She also sometimes start messaging me before I start anything, different from my Close Friends (like the girl in previous blog).
Over time I enjoyed the time we chat, message and so on. She seem to care about me... And I start to quite like her.
But should I?
No, I shouldn't. I don't want to experience the same as before again. Love as i know now is poison. Corrodes my name.
Plus, she seemed to take me as her brother, nothing more. Or may be just friend. Look at me as her kouhai. But I'm not sure much about being noticed as kouhai. Plus she has someone she likes.I don't care who and from where, I'll just ignore it and not gonna find it out. No matter, let's just call this friendzoned, no way of escaping. I have to focus my studies, not this. I don't have time for this anymore...
Though I don't want to fall into her friendzone..... Well too bad I seemed to have already fallen into it.
Sonatina By The Beach