I'll start with the one that has changed. Talk about the same person first. These days i get more closer to her. Asking her to teach me stuff and go out with her (though it's not only the 2 of us).
But i don't see her the same anymore. I still have myself under control. I have to avoid going too close to her like back then.
She has someone new to replace me, i don't really care much. The thing i think about is that she seem to treat him better as a friend than me before. I told her i am a boring person, yet she denys back then. Well maybe it was a white lie from her. The way she communicates with this guy is more cheerful than talking with me before. Perhaps the time when i avoid her makes her realize that she must choose a friend correctly this time.
Of course there's something that actually allows myself to get closer with her now. And that i'll type in another post.
Now talking about another person, which is a friend of mine.
I know him for years since i came to 'the now where i study' school. He is an extreme hyper person in my class. He is not the type of person to say 'hi' or 'bye' back then and hardly cares about others. And for years i have been with him like that. He taught me weird weird stuff for years and influenced me to do stupid stuff also. I get used to everything with him eventually and see him differently but in good manner.
He seem to change slightly to the good side since the last 2 years, which is to start giving some people a damn. Im okay that. But i really want him to stop shouting when talk about something he hates. Loud voices makes me aggressive, which i don't know why.
He changed till he is not the person i used to know. Now he demand me to say 'goodbye' to him. I hardly say goodbye to people, even my brothers. Except if i have to leave during in the middle of a conversation with people, pass a group of people before going home,to parents, respected people or the people say bye to me first. The reason being i don't say goodbye first in some conditions is because i believe im going to see them again very soon since we are living in the same world. The word 'goodbye' towards friend makes me feel like not going to see them again forever (again except for some condition). Other times i say goodbye is when talking to the people i just met or anyone that is not close friend of mine.
I see him close, so i don't say goodbye to his type of person, for reason being i don't like saying it to someone that is a close friend. But he insist me alllllll the fucking time till i really got pissed of some times.Yesterday before going to my car, a friend of mine (another person) stopped me and passed my movie ticket for that night. I asked him what time will he be there by the cinema, he answered me and i asked something which i can't remember now and suddenly from my 11 o'clock, this friend im talking about now shouted from afar 'WHY YOU SAY GOODBYE TO HIM , NOT TO ME????' I'm to 'dafuq' till i don't bother replying him anything. I didn't even say anything related to parting and he suddenly shout out loud like that.To make the matter worst, there are lots of people in that area. Im so embarrassed, didn't say a word to him, said 'catch you later' to the person who passed me the movie ticket and walked toward my car.
I believe he thinks that by saying 'goodbye' means we are a closer friend than before. The thing is, 'goodbye' doesn't indicate that we are close friends. What indicates it is from our own heart, not mouth.
I know it's fucking easy to say 'bye' or'goodbye', but again is just that i don't like to say it to close friends.
Put the byes in the corner. He likes to touch me, actually mollest me. WTF kind of friend does that to other friend, except if he/she has the fetish of it (i would not friend with one). I have a very strong uncontrollable reflex and i told him that if someone mollest me from behind or front, no matter who he/she is, i'll either push her or hit him strongly without control. I warned him all the time, yet he still does it. And instead of me telling him to stop, he told me to stop hitting him very hard. WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT? I warned him, he doesn't care, get the hit and the blame's on me. Does he expect me to just submit myself to him and let him touch me till his heart's content? Im not gay and i don't like being mollest by anyone. There's one day a friend of mine puts his hand over my shoulder and asked me about my day. For me that's still alright cause putting each other's hand over shoulder and talk about something friendly is what friends normally do. And after a few meter walk we parted and walk on different way. The next hour, this guy who im talking about now asked me, 'why you let him touch you but you don't let me touch you?'. My other friend's touch is friendly hands over shoulder and his one is mollest touch. Why did he try to say that hands over shoulder is similar to mollesting? I..just cannot say anything.
Put mollesting to the corner where byes is at. He is now overly attached with me, unlike last year. He follows me around the school. Friend follows other friend, that's normal. But i told him not to follow me sometimes, cause i want to deal things with some people/teacher privately, example like: trying to talk with the same girl i mentioned in this blog over and over again. He always say 'You (don't like/hate) me is it?' I told him nicely, to just let me be alone. Yet sometimes he still follows me, which is really annoying.
I hate overly attached people since long ago. I told him to make more friends, so he can have someone to talk to when im not there. Yet he still follows me only.
I know he is trying to get more closer with me, but the thing is I hate going around with people who are toooooo close with me till i can't have private time with other people. Perhaps i do have to tell him all of these..
He can go close with me, i don't mind, but if he get's too close, i may see him as someone different and that different person is not what i want as a friend.
You can set the pitch in your music high. But if it gets too high, the music will turn into a mosquito repellent sound. WHO THE HELL WANTS TO LISTEN TO SUCH MUSIC?
-Overly Augmentée Baroque Music -